All Apologies

I hope that your self-righteousness keeps you warm at night

That your uncanny ability to never be wrong in any given situation

Is a comfort when you’re all alone

But indulge my curiosity; you owe me that – and I’m quite done playing nice with you

Is it lonely ordering for just one?

Just you. Always you.

You and your pride.

Tell me, when you go to ask a question and see that no one’s there

No one to listen to you chirp

Does your ego swoop in to warm you?

What occupies the space your heart once held?

Oh, how I’d like to score your name from all memory

Chalk you up to some astrological anomaly; Mercury in retrograde, or some shit

Or a terrible hormonal imbalance

Without logic I allowed you inside my walls

Unguarded and without reason I danced the dance

I took you at your word

I let your words become my reality

I bought your bullshit ticket for a ride on your fucked up crazy train

And rode that bitch till the wheels feel off

But you wouldn’t know anything about that would you?

So preoccupied with yourself and your needs

Too consumed with mollifying my unease

Calming my distress

Reassuring me of what a good and solid man you were

In an attempt to keep me around

How’d that work out for you?

You strangled the life out of it

Kicking dirt in my face the whole time

Now you see the wicked side

Of me

As I’ve see the ugly and hollow in you

Care to dance or are you saving this one for your ego again?